Oh Man!

Ok its that time of the year again!
applications, deadlines, transcripts to be signed, marksheets to be attested, and a number of other things to be done!

And to top all of this i have to even get reco letters from professors i am sure dont really like me, format SOP's (gosh dont the people in USA have better stuff to do than read SOP'S? (weirdo's), select universities in a country i dont know anything about except what i see on television and obviously television is bound to show a rosy picture! i m supposed to know the geography of this new country so that i can decide which area is better for me!

MAddening!
anyways till i m sane......

my best friend is me!

Today I found a friend who knew everything
I felt she knew my weakness and the problems I've been dealt.
She understood my wonders and heard my dreams
she heard how I felt about life and love and knew what it all means.
Not once did she interrupt me or tell me I was wrong she understood what I was going through and promised she'd stay long.
I reached out to this friend,to show her that I care, to pull her close and let her know how much I need her there.
I went to hold her hand to pull her a bit nearer and I realized this perfect friend I found was nothing but a mirror.

Oh Man!

Just when u think everything is falling into place, one stitch just has to run out and pulling at the rest!
Its soooooooooo frustrating when all that u plan suddenly is of no use and you have to plan all over again!!!!

i hate this!

WHY?

how can someone fall sick on gokul ashtami?

be admitted under serious conditions on the first day of paryushan?

and be declared as a lost case on the first day of ganesh chaturthi?


i just dont get this!!!!
Losing my faith in God!

Prayer

I read this ,in one of the mails i'd recieved today... titled kiddie prayers,
Exactly my sentiments ...,

Dear God,

Instead of letting people die,
and having to make new ones,
why dont you just keep the ones you got now?

Jane.

[:(]

Time And Tide wait for no one!

Sleeping in my room,, relaxed after a particularly hot and tiring day.
Thinking about myself, thinking about my GRE prep and the exam.
Wondering if i wanted to go to the USA or was i simply better off here.
Thinking about the din outside, the dinner at night, the God damn world,
basically thinking about routine stuff,....

Least did i expect what happened next,
a friend called up, he was on the verge of tears , his mom had just been brought to lilavati hospital.
She was in a serious condition, the docs were'nt sure what she was suffering from n she was deteriorating by the minute.
Some said severe pneumonia was destroying her lungs and spreading to the rest of her body, some said it was an infection of the gall bladder.
A number of tests were being carried out..... the reports-All normal!
He was told that she might not survive if she doesnot show any signs of improvement in the next 6 hours!!
He was lost dint know whom to turn too...he'd lost his dad in a similar condition!
He need to talk , to cry, to let out his anger.....
And we spoke for a few minutes till he was needed again....

A part of me changed in those few minutes, my thoughts shifted from the din, the GRE , the USA, the routine to Life in general!

How important is anything in your life if the most important people in your life are no longer with you?
How important is an achievement when the very people who made of capable of it are no longer around to cheer you?
How important is your life?

I have no anwers ,
i m still wondering,,

In the mean time dear friend I hope your Mother gets well soon,
i hope she comes back home and prepares you a lovely meal, i hope she comes back home to work on those crochet that she so loves,
i hope she comes back soon to the nitty-gritty of daily work!
i hope she comes back soon.....
Wishing her Life and you Strength
Take Care